Archive for February, 2007

Keep the sun shining

Sunday, February 25th, 2007

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When you have something so good it made your days bright and sunny, you will always hold it close for as long as it lasts. What is the right thing to do when it fades away and one day, you wake up realizing that it’s already gone? Accept it, and be thankful of the memories left behind. For nothing so good and overwhelmingly wonderful could really last in this flawed world, specially those that we consider "too good to be true". One could only appreciate it of once being part of your life, and perhaps move on with the lessons and happiness it once brought you once it leaves you.
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Non-acceptance and regret is never part of God’s plan on why He had brought you this. Thinking ill of it’s short existence would clearly defy it’s purpose in your life. They say that it is better to have given the opportunity to receive the beauty of this experience than not to witness it at all. It is true. Besides, this will never leave you specially if it has affected you this much. It leaves you physically, but it leaves behind other things much more essential that has and should have now brought to life a new you. You must have learned so much when it was part of your life, how much more will you learn from it’s absence. So celebrate each little thing that it has left you behind. Share the memories so as to remind you always of the great things that it has caused and given you, by letting others see it, experience it, be witness to it as it had you as a witness.
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Being left behind alone is never a sweet experience. Most of the time, you blame either you or the one who left for the sadness brought by the absence, specially when allowed to happen unjustified. In the dar, although forgetting may not be feasible at the moment, always remember that forgiving precedes forgetting. Forsaking, on the other hand, leads to further hurting. You may consider vengeance as a way to alleviate the pain that caused by shortcomings, it has never resolved to contentment in the end. There is no validation that could contradict this.
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Keep the sun shining in the absence. Never wait for the return as high expectations always lead to disappointments. Instead, do not wait at all. Move on. Keep the grace and smile in the process. Although as it goes away, so does most of what you have shared, then take it as an opportunity to rebuild a new you from what you have already learned. Although the first days, weeks, or perhaps months would be defined with sighs of hurting and feelings of emptiness, do not let it conquer you as a whole. It is human to hurt, but so is to heal. Besides, being alone is really just an illusion. God will always be there beside you, so are others who have loved you always as you, no matter what.
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A Feel Good Day

Monday, February 19th, 2007

I woke up today with a particular song continuously playing in my mind. I don’t know… maybe it’s because I just can’t get over that movie that Ethel and I had seen last weekend. Two of the main characters sang this song. The movie overwhelmed me simply because it captured one of my frustrations in life… to write a song to someone, with someone. I’d say it’s more of a friendship movie than a romantic one because of how the story focused on how two friends bonded together in such a short time (4 days deadline to write a song!) It’s such a great film I can’t wait to write a review about it. But since I don’t have time for that yet, I’ll just post here the song so that everybody would hear it. So… Everybody now…
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Way Back Into Love

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(Hugh Grant | Drew Barrimore)
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I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on
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I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
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I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions
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All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
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All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

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**from the motion picture soundtrack of Music and Lyrics
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Hay Life…

Saturday, February 17th, 2007

Sunset

Sunset in Pamarawan, Malolos City. A lazy Sunday was just about to end on the riverside. There’s a good reason there to stop for a while, sit back, and think where you’ve been, and why you are here now. You start recalling where you’ve been days ago, then weeks ago. Before you know it, your thoughts have already gone so far you can see the whole world either as you know it, or when you knew it.

You smile when you look back at good things that just went by. You check if you still got in you those bad things that forced you into a decision to change, and most of the time, you get amazed on how time has already healed the wounds- you don’t remember the nightmare anymore, although you wonder how you got the marks it left behind. Indeed, there are some things that you cannot undo anymore, but that’s life, really. When you reach a crossroad, you decide on what direction to take, except the direction back where you came from. You’ll have to take for granted things that you know are very important to you, and though letting go is very difficult, you’ll have to go on your way believing that healing would come later on. There are two things that could happen from here and while you move on: You get used to the hurt, or you just forget about it.

Sometimes, you get to think you’ve been dealing with something and been quite into it for so long that you got tired of it already, things get quite jaded and now, you get to question even it’s purpose. You’ve been fighting for or clinging into something for a very long time now that, at some point when you get distracted or you lose focus, there’s a moment when you stop and ask yourself why you were on that spot in the first place. You somehow forget where you’ve been as you move along, and although you convince yourself that you must move on, you question even the path you are following, wish that there’d be another path to choose, and go straight to it when it comes.

Looking at photographs best describes reflection. From printed colors on a piece of paper or from millions of colors flashed on your screen, you recreate the world as it was in the past. You indulge on the immense feelings captured by the picture, and on that moment, you reexperience the smiles, the laughs, the excitement, everything that that day brought to you. You wonder what you were thinking that moment and how that moment came to be. The world then was either a better or worse place to be, but you still smile thinking you got through were you were and you are now who you are. You’ve either gained or lost something (or someone) days after, but you could still feel glad you were able to experience gaining or losing something, as the experience itself is a sign that you’ve gained a lot of things that you now keep no matter what.

Life is neither pre-determined nor free of choices. There could never be something good or bad. It’s how you interpret or find meaning on every moment you take. The worst decision anyone would make is to take each moment for granted, as doing so would also mean taking for granted who you are right now. To be in denial is to not be true to one’s self. The best approach, on the other hand, is to accept and just be thankful for everything you encounter everyday. Look at things based on how you know yourself (who you are) and either take it, or try to change it and selectively add to what great things you could contribute to the world. If it goes against your will or your being, you adjust to it. Life is about making good compromises. This, specially when life itself gives you much choices, which happens a lot, really. This is what’s growing is all about. You grow with the world, you don’t grow against it.

Just letting thoughts flow freely tonight. I guess I’ve been doing a lot of conversations with God lately. 

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Wednesday, February 14th, 2007

Love


My top 10 signs you truly are in love with someone:

1. She’d always smell nice, even if she says she doesn’t. She still looks beautiful during bad hair days.

2. Feels heaven whenever you wake up with her kiss / wake her up with your kiss.

3. You never get tired of telling people how you started out together. To you, it’s the greatest love story ever told.

4. You never get tired of her tantrums.

5. You miss her when you get to new places you know she’d really like, and later on plan to go back but this time, with her.

6. You buy her roses and you never get shy walking around town with it.

7. Thinking about her is enough reason to smile, even in the lowest of days.

8. The corniest movies are never corny with her. (You’d even learn to like ‘em later on…)

9. You can’t wait to get out of work when you know she’s home waiting.

10. You get to spend years with her, and it’s never enough.

Top 10 signs you truly are loved by someone:

1. She’d tell you that todayt is your bad hair day, and knows how to fix it even before it starts.

2. There’s a sweet hug for every facial expression you throw at her.

3. She never gets tired of telling people how you started out together. To her, it’s the greatest love story ever told.

4. She never gets tired of your tantrums.

5. When she goes to new places, she never fails to send you a text message saying she wishes to be with you that moment.

6. A dozen of roses is a craze that never fades.

7. She knows when you feel the lowest, even if you don’t tell or show it, and knows how to make you high.

8. She’d see the most complicated type of movies that you love, and would still want to talk about it after watching it together.

9. She can’t wait ’till you get home from work.

10. Monthsaries are still meaningful for her, even if you’ve been together for years already.

Thanks for making everyday with you feel like Valentine’s day, Honey! *hugs* :)