Musings of the Uninspired

Today, I look up in the sky that were covered with gray in the recent days. The sun is finally up, clouds still dancing with the trees, and it’s alright. The storm has finally ended, and I am finally at peace.
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To my best friend who I know is up there now singing with the angels, can you see me smiling now? I know you do. I know because I still think of you whenever I recall all the words you’ve told me about being myself, believing in myself and believing that I could still be happy. I now am, after letting go of everything that had caused be nothing but bad memories.
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"When you feel sad, just call me, I’d always be there to cheer you up." You still do. You still do, my friend. I am no longer your man in distress, although amidst all the laughter and cheers brought about by this new world I live in right now, and after throwing away all but those thoughts that remind me of good times, there are still times I wish you’re there to appreciate what you’ve done to me. "Hold on and I’ll be there." I’d make fun of you whenever you tell me that, though now how I miss your company sometimes.
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Today I turn on the radio and heard this new song from one of your favorite bands. "Wag Ka Nang Umiyak" by Sugarfree. Weird. Reminds me of when our friendship shined, and regardless of the message, I still found tears flowing from my eyes. Tears of missing you, perhaps. For sure, tears of happiness. Appreciation. For once, I had someone to lean on to while others are leaning on me. For once, you were there before I finally learned to stand again. For once, you were telling me the very same thing…
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Wag ka nang umiyak
Sa mundong pabago-bago
Pagibig ko ay totoo
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Ako ang iyong banta
Kung magalit man ang alon ng panahon
Sabay tayong aahon
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Kung wala ka nang maintindihan
Kung wala ka nang makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin
Kapit ka sa akin
Hindi kita bibitawan
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Wag ka nang umiyak
Mahaba man ang araw
Uuwi ka sa yakap ko
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Wag mo nang damdamin
Kung wala ako sa iyong tabi
Iiwan kong puso ko sa ‘yo
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At kung pakiramdam mo’y
Wala ka nang kakampi
Isipin mo ako dahil
Puso’t isip ko’y na sa ‘yong tabi
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Kung wala ka nang maintindihan
Kung wala ka nang makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin
Kapit ka sa akin
Hindi kita bibitawan
Hindi kita pababayaan
Hindi kita pababayaan
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Kapit ka
Kumapit ka
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Kung wala ka nang maintindihan
Kung wala ka nang makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin
Kumapit ka sa akin
Hindi kita bibitawan
Hindi kita pababayaan
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Hindi kita pababayaan
Hindi kita pababayaan
Hindi kita pababayaan
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Kumapit ka

Darn my aching back. I still haven’t heard from our family doctor (paging Dr. Jerome Ramos!!!!) why this is, but I really believe it’s just a case of me spending around 5 hours sleeping on a crooked position. Geez I need to change my pillows. Anyone spare me a couple of really smooth cuddly soft huggables?
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But so far, Ethel said my blood sugar is okay. Still waiting for the Xray and ECG results. Hay… a slight fever and an aching back. And it really hurts when I cough (though I don’t have a cold, I just need to check occasionally if the pain is still there, silly me…) What more reason do I need to get myself completely grounded this whole weekend. Sigh. I’m quite disappointed to have decided to go SL last Friday since I had to meet up with Rhecel for the big training. Right. This flu, this aching back- they’re part of the big transition. My body is reacting again to the big changes that I’ve been trying to cope up these days. I had been doing well if not for these darn darn fragile back muscles. Grrr…. I think I’ll need to try later Celeste’s advise. I need exercise. It’ll be good for the mind, the heart and this sickly body of mine. Badminton. Yup. I need to buy me a badminton racket later. For the meantime, lemme just get me some soft pillows… ouch.
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Since Ethel needs to go to work today to compensate with the expenses (cuz there have been lots of ‘em recently), I had to stay home alone and do some things while resting. So far, I’ve had my blood lab-tested, went to Chowking to have my breakfast, finished 10 first episodes of Air Gear, an episode of Tenjou Tenge, I’ve watched NEXT starring Nicholas Cage, done with two doses of pain-relievers, eaten a slice of  Collette’s buko pie, and preparing to have my daily afternoon doze so as not to disorient my bodyclock. Hopefully, by the time Ethel got back, I’m already feeling fine again so she doesn’t have to worry about me anymore. (Though it really feels great being taken care of by my wifey hehe.)
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I need to be in shape tomorrow. I need to be in the office again as I’m quite excited for what’s in store for the new position I’m taking starting August. I need to prove to everyone that I can do it. This aching back got to go! =)